Jaz......

Jaz, You helped me so much tonight. I really want to give something back to you for your words, but I feel the best thing i can offer you for them, is to follow through with what I said I would do. I know I made a mistake as I have made lots of mistakes lately, and I will make more, and at those times i need my friends. You are a great person and I deeply respect you for your understanding and wisdom.

Thanks you so much, you are a very, very dear friend to me, and I hope our friendship will last our lifetime. Thank you.

New Land!!! Yaaaaaaay!!!!!

I got new land!!! WOOOOOO! I had land in the Ello sim, but for ages there has been a freebie place there, ack! Well because of this i even rented a small parce off my friend Lily, a sort of retreat, and I put a beautiful little cottage there that was built by my friend Velmwend and given to me by Kenzie (Thanks soo much guys!). Its a real sweet place that i will keep for as long as I can. But as it happens a couple of people that work at the Clock Tower (Sasha and Gore) have bought a full island. Sooooo after a couple of quick words with them, i put my old land up for sale at a silly low price and it sold within 5 hours, even at a healthy profit! A few IM's later and I got me a fantastic 6144m parcel on the corner of their island. Thank you sooo much Sasha and Gore, I love it sooo much even tho its baron at the moment! And well, that picture is the view I will get from now on. No more freebie place, no more mega lag, just a lovely parcel to set up a new home with great neighbours and a fantastic ocean side view!!!

Impromptu Beach Party

Well whats btter than an impromptu patry?? An impromptu beach party!!! YAAAAY! DJ Kai invited lots of us back to his after his show at The Clock Tower! Well it wasn't quite so impromptu for me and Kylii, my good friend, as we had to set it up whilst Kai was still banging out his tunes. But hey, it was a fantastic party, great scene, lighting was mega cool, though if your camera got caught on one of the lights it spun ou round and round and made you quite dizzy. Oh, and yes that IS Kai's butt in the bottom picture WOOOOOO!

Guns and Pink!

You know, there is something about pink and guns :P Just lately I bought some guns, Desert Eagles. They are mighty fine guns too, but not really used them yet, but.... I discovered they look fantastic with pink!! *Big Grin*

its just two BIG guns strapped to my firm thighs, the straps wrapped round and well they make me feel nasty! hehe.

ya know, when you hold them, big hard heavy things, in the palm of your hand, well its like mmmmmmm........

and you hold them firmly, and gently squeeze the trigger until BANG, and you feel the big thick handle kick back at you.....

and you just hold them and fire round after round feeling the kick of each bullet pound at you and hear the chink, tink tink, of each empty shell hitting the floor one after another.

mmmmmmmmm..... :D

Why???

Sitting on a prim at 768 meters up, It has a kinda calming feeling. Up there, on your own, nothing or no one about, gives you time to reflect. I don't feel so good at the moment, but I don't know exactly why. In fact forget 'exactly', I have no idea why. I have some great friends, some excellent friends. People like me, I look fairly good. Ok, I've had a few bad days on SL and RL hasn't been easy either, but that shouldn't make me feel like this. I have had far, far worse in the past and laughed at it. Ahhhh, this is stupid, haha! I know all about stupid lately.....BAH! Ok, thats enough Dellie, get your head together....sort yourself out.....deep breaths, slow, not too fast now......loose the tears......you ARE that good, great, energetic, loving, loved person you aspire to. Go back there and knock em dead!!!!!

"Eclipse" By Pink Floyd

Haha! I drafted this ages ago on my lunch from work and totally forgot about it! This is a song by Pink Floyd - Eclipse, from their Dark Side of the Moon album. It is one of my all time favourite tracks from Floyd, but must be played after 'Brain Damage' (the song before on the album)

"Eclipse"

All that you touch

All that you see

All that you taste

All you feel

All that you love

All that you hate

All you distrust

All you save

All that you give

All that you deal

All that you buy

beg borrow or steal

All you create

All you destroy

All that you do

All that you say

All that you eat

everyone you meet

All that you slight

everyone you fight

All that is now

All that is gone

All that's to come

And everything under the sun is in tune

But the sun is eclipsed by the moon.

There is no dark side of the moon really.

As a matter of fact it's all dark.

Dazed & Confused

This is a post I drafted ages ago but wasn't brave enough at the time to actually post it. Well Now (11/02/2007) I'm ready to post it.

Well, this is a side of me that even I don't see very often. I feel mixed up, confused, happy and sad. I'm feeling things I didn't even know existed until the past few days. Its hard being me right now, harder than some people I know may think, but I will battle on. I've come too far now to throw everything away, but SL can be a very cruel place, just like RL. The comparison in emotions between SL and RL is an immaculate similarity, but sometimes I feel that I feel more in my SL than RL, as more of ones self is put into SL, but also the gain is great too. Already I'm feeling better after writing this. I need my friends at the moment, as few of them as there are, but they have their own things to do, and yes sometimes I must take a back seat, though it hurts at times like this,feeling lonely. I am sitting by a small lake in Crescent, no one on the radar. Its a strange thing to just sit, in a region, by ones self and contemplate life. Things are changing fast for me, within me. I'm starting to want things, things I had no idea I would ever want, and even though they can taste bitter at times, nevertheless I want them. Whether or not I will get them I do not know, and whether or not I will like them, I also do not know. I am growing into my own person, far dissimilar to the RL me. I have taken on my own personality, my own feelings and my own thoughts. Time will be the only thing to guide me at the moment, and the path that is before me, well I hope I take the right turns, though I don't know where they are leading.