Well, this is a side of me that even I don't see very often. I feel mixed up, confused, happy and sad. I'm feeling things I didn't even know existed until the past few days. Its hard being me right now, harder than some people I know may think, but I will battle on. I've come too far now to throw everything away, but SL can be a very cruel place, just like RL. The comparison in emotions between SL and RL is an immaculate similarity, but sometimes I feel that I feel more in my SL than RL, as more of ones self is put into SL, but also the gain is great too. Already I'm feeling better after writing this. I need my friends at the moment, as few of them as there are, but they have their own things to do, and yes sometimes I must take a back seat, though it hurts at times like this,feeling lonely. I am sitting by a small lake in Crescent, no one on the radar. Its a strange thing to just sit, in a region, by ones self and contemplate life. Things are changing fast for me, within me. I'm starting to want things, things I had no idea I would ever want, and even though they can taste bitter at times, nevertheless I want them. Whether or not I will get them I do not know, and whether or not I will like them, I also do not know. I am growing into my own person, far dissimilar to the RL me. I have taken on my own personality, my own feelings and my own thoughts. Time will be the only thing to guide me at the moment, and the path that is before me, well I hope I take the right turns, though I don't know where they are leading.
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